Greeting
This website's text content is highly based off a notion page I made a while ago. It's not public because it's not supposed to behave as a website of course, and the restrictions of a study/focus based website didn't allow me to do as much as i wanted so I got here instead.
Cogito Ergo Sum
I'm not a talkative guy so I dont really know what to say or write to fill up space like this... I like the way it would look though with a little greeting/introduction section like this so I guess I can type whatever.
Does anyone even read these sections? Like, I don't unless I'm extremely interested in the website I'm on, which usually doesn't happen... I guess you could argue I read pages that are explanatory for some tutorial or project that intrigues me but overall, I just skip to pretty pictures n such like a 9th grader.
I'm also not good with words as some may have come to understand from this paragraph- my strenghts are in visual fields like design or drawing... anything that doesn't need words or if it does, it requires the minimum indispensable. I used to love reading books but at some point around the beginning of my teens, I got into manga and comics as a whole and it greatly harmed my reading skills and now it is extremely hard for me to read with any minor noise at all. It's upsetting really :sob:
I guess I'll do an about me section where I put stuff like my likes n dislikes. I used to think—and still do to a degree—that about me sections were useless and close to nobody really cares enough to look through it, but I guess one good thing it does have in its making is that it makes you think about yourself in depth and, for people like me who are mostly just a social mirror, it helps make your inner ditto 
relax a bit and go back to its usual shape.
artist-Yemsao
Have a nice stay.
- B0ringcat
Stuff I Really Like
Cherry Crush
The Cure
I don't know what to say here, I just love the songs, I love having physical CDS or vynils of them, and most of all I love Robert Smith's hair. It took me a really long time to master the art of goth hair... obviously their music isn't goth but more alternative but hair is hair.
It's also very funny being a fan of both The Cure and The Smiths cause of all the drama between the two groups. It becomes even more funny when you find that I'm also a fan of Morrissey as his own music artist.......
I have a lot of favorite songs, the top 3 might be
It was incredibly difficult naming top 3 cause aside from the fact that my favorite songs always change depending on mood, period of the year, and more variable stuff life gives you; I also just love all of them the same.
Currently I own 4 The Cure vynils and they are:
Dexter
I had no clue what Dexter was about — or that it even existed at all — up until my senior year of highschool, when I was put in Forensics. Shoutout to my Forensics teacher, whose last name I won't mention 'cause I remember her not being comfortable putting her real info online, she was the BEST teacher I had and will ever have in my entire life
Anyway, she'd always mention Dexter and even dressed up as him for halloween and at some point I got too curious and decided to watch it.
Needless to say it was the best decision of my life.
The story (no spoilers) follows a blood spatter analyst who, by day, helps the Miami Metro Police solve crimes. By night, he kills the bad guys that fall through the cracks of the justice system. The whole concept is so captivating.
I specifically love the relationship between him and Rita, his girlfriend. The depiction of his psychopathic personality also feels realistic. It accurately shows how psychopaths can function well in society and achieve great things, which goes against the common belief that every psychopath is a murderer.
The show has 8 seasons, with around 12 episodes each, along with a few prequels and sequels. I'll list the watch order down below for anyone interested. Logically, you would start with the prequel, but nothing makes sense if you do.
- Dexter
- Dexter:New blood
- Dexter:Original Sin
- Dexter:Resurrection
There's a lot of people who express an extreme dislike towards Dexter:Original Sin but I dont share the same feeling. Throughout the franchise, the storytelling and acting is spot on and never drift from the plot. Sadly because of the mixed reception, it's not certain whether or not a second season will happen. The cast even started a petition to be allowed to shoot.
You watched the whole thing and have now nothing else to do with your life?
Have no fear friends! As I'm typing this, Micheal C. Hall (Dexter Morgan's actor) announced that they got the green light for a second season of Resurrection!!!
To be honest, I'm not sure where the story will go from here. The first season felt complete on its own..
But hey, Dexter Fridays are another thing to live for so I'm not complaining :D
Useful Resources N More Stuff
web res stuff
Web Building n Coding
- milanandfriends — Divide page into clickable sections
- petra pixel — PetraPixel Layout Generator
- scripted — Border / frame tutorial
- meow — Border from image generator
- monsieurdoll — PSP video embed tutorial
- loveberry — CSS text resources
- smartgb — Guestbook widget
- sadgirlonline — The website-building bible
- unicodeangel — Huge resource database
- zonelets — Beginner friendly blogging thing
- imgonline — make seamless img texture
- W3Schools — disable text selection
- Stupied codez — a couple of code snippets and templates
Graphics N Visual Stuff
- Cute ID buttons database
- Pokémon sprites archive
- Cool image effects ⚠️ (epilepsy warning)
- Nintendo-style name tutorial
- coco's pixel safari
- image color picker — super useful not only for picking colors but to test and fix contrasting colors like text on background
- STAMPS — lots of stamps yup
- emocowboy — crazy amount os graphics
- webcore uploads — tumblr page with lots of stamps variety
- raining starss — colorful stamps collection
- imgchest — place to dump all your pictures to avoid hotlinking from people's websites
- imgur — same as imgchest but it will ban you if you spam post for some reason
- remove bg — easy and personally good background remover
- IMVU status — cute imvu status buttons. most of them are dead images though
Widgets
- imood — Share your current mood
- status cafe — Same as imood but for some reason the registration doesn't work for me...
- current moon phase — Just what it says
- timeanddate — Share your current time
- snazzyspace viewcounter — See how many people are on your website at the moment
Fun Knick-knacks
- mii.nxw.pw — Mii maker and posing tool
- vibes.fish — Fishing web game
- dog-house quiz — Animal Crossing villager quiz
- Lofi.town — A very simple MMORPG to help people study together
Useful Websites
Non-coding stuff
- Alibris — used books for a lower price (I don't think it ships out of the US though)
- Finch 𖠌 — self care/routine building app
- Dailybean 𖠌 — very simple n cute mood tracker app
- Dust bunny 𖠌 — lvl up based cozy game with lots of plants and low effort minigames (the plants stop growing/wilting after 24hrs of inactivity which is nice for anxious ppl like me)
I have a lot more art than the one I am posting at the moment (Jan 5 2026) but some of them have now bad memories, and other I'm just not that happy with, and thus will not be included in a personal website that has no monetary value or interest. If you want to check out more though go on my tumblr. I have other platforms but that's the one I post on the most. Not that I draw that much at all though...
Btw if you click on the pictures it takes you to the tumblr post it's on.
2024-2025
2025-2026
2026-2027
Stuff I Like
I made lists of stuff I have/like which was heavily inspired by Stupied's neocities page on their listography. Now I don't know if I should make a media log too or not 'cause this is basically just that...
Books to Read
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1984 — George Orwell
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Animal Farm — George Orwell
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The Island of Doctor Moreau — H. G. Wells
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The Metamorphosis — Franz Kafka
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The Trial — Franz Kafka
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We — Yevgeny Zamyatin
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Frankenstein — Mary W. Shelley
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The Telltale Heart — Edgar Allan Poe
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The Black Cat — Edgar Allan Poe
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La filosofia del Dr. House — Blitris
Manga I Own
Ongoing
- Banana Fish — 4 volumes (omnibus)
- A Man and His Cat — 6 volumes
- Berserk — 1 volume (omnibus)
- Witch Hat Atelier — 6 volumes
- Those Not-So-Sweet Boys — 3 volumes
- Nana — 3 volumes
- The Way of the Househusband — 8 volumes
- Toilet-Bound Hanako-kun — 19 volumes
- Demon Slayer — 8 volumes
- Whisper Me a Love Song — 6 volumes
- Chainsaw Man — 6 volumes
- Phantom of the Idol — 3 volumes
- Beast Complex — 1 volume
- Blade of the Immortal — 3 volumes
- Call of the Night — 3 volumes
- Doomsday With My Dog — 2 volumes
- Tokyo Aliens — 3 volumes
- Go With the Clouds — 7 volumes
- Trigun — 1 volume (I got so lucky finding it at Half Price Books)
- To your Eternity — 7 volumes
One Shots
- Boy Meets maria
- Until I Meet my Husband
- Dororo — The 1967 version
Finished
- The Girl From the Other Side — finished
- Wotakoi — finished + artbook
- Our Dreams at Dusk — finished
- Go for It, Nakamura! — finished
- Until Your Bones Rot — finished
- Orange — finished + sequel volume
- MADK — finished (I know its reputation sucks IYKYK but the story is genuinely beautiful)
- Goodnight Punpun — I only own 5 volumes but I read the whole thing online.
Dropped
- Ghost in The Shell — Im gonna come back to it once I'm more knowledgeable on politics.
- Shaman King — I own all the volumes but being my first manga series ever, I dropped it. I'll come back to it soon though.
comics I've read
- Cherry Crush — webtoon
- Saga — big fat physical omnibus volumes
- Lore Olympus — physical volumes
- Zero Calcare comics — various volumes I own, all by the italian artist Zero Calcare
- Saga — big fat omnibus volumes
- Something is Killing the Children — only have 2 volumes
- Villains are Destined to Die — 4 volumes
Studio Ghibli Movies
- Nausicaä of the Valley of the Wind (1984)
- Castle in the Sky (1986)
- Grave of the Fireflies (1988)
- My Neighbor Totoro (1988)
- Kiki’s Delivery Service (1989)
- Only Yesterday (1991)
- Porco Rosso (1992)
- Ocean Waves (1993)
- Pom Poko (1994)
- Whisper of the Heart (1995)
- Princess Mononoke (1997)
- My Neighbors the Yamadas (1999)
- Spirited Away (2001)
- The Cat Returns (2002)
- Howl’s Moving Castle (2004)
- Tales from Earthsea (2006)
- Ponyo (2008)
- The Secret World of Arrietty (2010)
- From Up on Poppy Hill (2011)
- The Wind Rises (2013)
- The Tale of the Princess Kaguya (2013)
- When Marnie Was There (2014)
- The Boy and the Heron (2023)
My wishlist
- An old flip phone — although they most likely won't work with new WIFIs...
- A good PC — I'm so tired of my macbook lagging and not supporting games.
- Life size Link statue — please I will literally marry whoever gets me one.
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about the persona
Lore Art Misc
It was a real hassle making up a story and background for him. His skin is an unnatural color; half of his face is disgustingly scarred; and he has random set of wings on his back + one on his neck. I'm not a fan of fantasy at all but its not as if I hate the genre, I just don't like it, and thus I feel it vital to explain everything or else I get a brain ick...
- Literally a corpse
- DOB: ??/??/????
- Pronouns: he/him
- Has a British accent
Random info
Personality Stuff
- For the folk to treat him as human
- To not be left alone
- Control over the hunting grounds
Wants
- To accept the past and move on
- To move out of isolation
- To learn self care and respect
Needs
- Neurotic
- Conscientious
- Meticulous
- Cynical
- Hardworking
- Defensive
Personality Traits
Compressed Lore
!There are major plot holes intended to be found in a different section of the website. This is all the lore lived from his perspective!
Died at the age of 19 after jumping off an escarpment. Woke up in a bloodied shack located in the middle of nothing, with no memories of his past, identity, or even his birthday. His short-term memory is extremely weak and he is prone to forgetting things. His overall skills are at an elementary level but he can still function.
After leaving the shack he found himself in, he wandered the woods until finding an abandoned, shabby hut a few miles away from a village, which he chose to live in. He found a few flimsy gardening supplies and books, which helped him learn how to live off his own produce, finding the skill vital after trying to fit in with the townsfolk but being rejected because of his appearance.
Due to forced alienation, communication is involuntarily set to minimal, and speech gradually degrades to no more than a few words per sentence. When speaking successfully, his English is very strained and comes off as British. His mental state is borderline stable, and minor inconveniences have the potential to destabilize his day, depending on his current mood and surrounding events.
He is aware of the open wound on the right half of his face and takes precautions when going outside so as not to let any bug enter it. He finds bugs particularly annoying but refuses to use bug poison so as to let his cultivations “breathe better.”
He considers his appearance to be normal and passively accepts the village’s rejection, limiting contact to winter trades with the local market and relying on their produce and meat when cultivation is not possible and because of his refusal to kill. He is not a vegetarian and will eat meat when nothing else is available, but prefers to look for any other source of food before considering the consumption of flesh.
He considers every animal he comes into contact with a friend unless aggressive, in which case he simply avoids the creature to safeguard both it and himself.
Art
Illustrations
Earlier versions
Misc Stuff
- A man of routine
- Not good with words
- Ripe age of 19
- Hates being alone
- Very anxious
Generic Info
Socials
Acheivements
Fictional Kins
Frederick Kreiburg
Identity V
House + Wilson
House MD
Not one or the other individually but a mix of them
Labels?
Pictures that hit too close to home
Um, I don't know what to write here. I put pretty much everything that there is to know about me up above... I'm awful at writing and even shittier at doing so about myself. Nobody cares about your likes and dislikes, and even more about your favorite song of the moment or what color your soul is (IDK).
I thought about adding a 'label' section with my personality type and such, but I just don't like that. The act of writing part of yourself down means setting it in stone, even though you can 100% change it whenever you want, and I don't like that. I don't like writing about myself because I am always changing, either for better or for worse, but I am nonetheless. Even things like MBTIs are not entirely reliable, as one day you could lean more towards a certain type and the next day towards its complete opposite. Take me, for example. I've taken that test multiple times over the years, and I have always gotten either ISTP or INFJ, which are polar opposites of each other, except for the Introversion aspect of myself, which never really changes to a more extroverted one.
I think the main issue I have with myself, really, is that I hate lying. I’m an impeccable liar and even scare myself at times, but I hate doing so especially when talking about myself. Living with my head means that every day, every single action you do, there is someone behind you watching and criticizing you for it. If you not eating something means it’ll be thrown away, you must consume it all, or else you’ll be a bad person. If you go to the doctor for a check-up, you’re wasting a time slot for someone who might need it more, and thus, you are a bad person. I even remember the time I got diagnosed with both anxiety and depression by an actual doctor, and all I could think about was that I must have faked something on the tests they gave me in order to get people’s attention.
Even now, as I’m writing this, I cannot do what most people do on their about mes and just say “I like X, but I prefer Y. Although I have to say I really hate Z.” Because by tomorrow or maybe next week, it’d be a lie.
I have to say that my talking about my issues does not mean they are life threatening to me. I take consistent medicine and have consistent contact with my therapist. I just wish I didn’t have them to begin with.
What makes me most angry is people actually faking having anxiety because it undermines everything I’ve done in order to be able to walk outside without the dread of something awful happening. Just today, and I’ll leave the timeframe vague just ‘cause I can, I had to go to a local bookstore to pick up my school books for the term, and I was sweating with dread because of the 0.001% chance of seeing a former close friend of mine with whom I cut ties just recently. And it’s not because I did them wrong and thus I am avoiding the outcome of my own actions, because I really have no idea what I even did wrong, but seeing him would just trigger the whole mental crisis all over again.
There are people who have it way worse than me, so I don’t complain about my own life too much, but I do wish things were easier. I guess this in itself is a way to write an about me and get a really awful good look at what I am.
My loot
random shit i like to keep but have no reason to
